all affairs

 

Everything is hard before it’s getting easy. Remember that it’s hard to lose weight but it’s harder being fat all the time without even try. Please try then Sharifah. I’m asking you a favor. Please help me. Please, I want the best for you. Please do the best for you and only you. We are in this together. I love you so much. Do the best everyday, show up, wear your best dress and make up, focus on knowledge, my health, my wellbeing, my deen, my physical and mental, my appearance., my jodoh. Ya Allah please help me to have more energy and time

read a lot please

 

Honestly speaking, I miss running, and jogging. Sipping the fresh air, feeling healthy and fit. Literally miss that but I have no time and energy nowadays.
To do today:
1. Mandi basuh rambut
2. Recite Quran
3. Read Blinkist and The Tipping Point
4. Workout
5. Learn Burmese
6. SOlat on time, doa 3 minutes
7. Surah Waqiah
8. Doa hardest on my bad dream last night.
9. Doa for my job and wellness
10. Doa for rezeki and can help mama and all
11. Doa to always be calm and relax and happy.

Read a lot and like a lotcuz you are very shallow cuz youre not reading

WE WILL START AGAIN AND AGAIN WE HAVE 191 DAYS THATS NOT LONG THANKS

 

191 days left till Niall. My ultimate goal is to have cash rm3000 to spend at Jakarta. That’s quite a lot of money. First thing first,

1.       Flight tix, but before that need to renew my passport. But before renew my passport, I need to find for my passport.

That’s the only thing first. Then the normal2 things like losing weight so that you can look good in pictures, kemas bilik cuz when your bilik kemas then it will reflect in all aspect of life, then read about Jakarta and study religiously so you know what to expect and what not. We can do this lets do this. And don’t forget to listen to all niall horan and one direction songs. Yes this is it. And like always, let’s operate the songs.

true colour

 

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It’s like I was living in a dream. Being love dearly. Like the most important thing in this world. The most valuable gold. I never realize how blinding that is. I have the idea before, through watching movies and reading, but never have one person myself. That’s honestly the best feeling ever. Like living in a dream. Everyday, looking forward to see him. Having time with him. Always wanted. The best things.

638 days later. Everything feel forced. It’s like I change the most loving man to just a man. Maybe true colours show.

help me Ya Allah.

lots of love

 

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Ya Allah, hati yang berharap ini hanya mampu berharap agar semua nya akan baik2 sahaja. Tolong Ya Allah, tolong aku.

Maaf Ya Allah, maafkan aku.

Terima kasih ya Allah, atas segalanya.    

 

During times of hardship and suffering, it is important that we humbly beg Allah for His comfort and protection. Allah, the Mighty and Majestic, says:

فَلَوْلَا إِذْ جَاءَهُم بَأْسُنَا تَضَرَّعُوا وَلَٰكِن قَسَتْ قُلُوبُهُمْ وَزَيَّنَ لَهُمُ الشَّيْطَانُ مَا كَانُوا يَعْمَلُونَ

 

Ya Allah, I seek help, comfort and protection from You Ya Allah. Forgive me Ya Allah for just thinking about me and my so called past experiences. It’s like I forgot that You can do so much better. Give me peace and solace. And lots of love too

please forgive me Ya ALlah

 

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Is this a new era? He’s getting bored with with all my blackmails and I’m the one who always coming back I don’t want to get hurt. I hate being in that situation so I beg. He’s still nice though. But I’m afraid if I left him unattended and he will never coming back to me at all. He will forget me. He has a great coping mechanism involving alcohol and I don’t have that choice, don’t even have that choice ever. What should I do now? Should I give him more time? Is it right the right couple or the right person will never make you in this position. Is it right? Forgive me Ya Allah for loving your creation very much. Please forgive me Ya Allah.   

think rationally

 

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I’m sad. I’m sorry Ya Allah. I am now so shallow that I don’t even know how to berdoa. I don’t have right words to it. Now I realize how important it is to have a lot of knowledge. Am I wasting so many time and energy? Am I hoping to something that is not good for me. Is it all in the past? Is it time for me to move forward? Ya Allah please help me. What should I do now ya allah. Ya Allah, please help me so much ya Allah, I need your help Ya Allah. Help me Ya Allah to be rajin and think rationally.