heavy dent

 

Okay sharifah, buckle up. Please don’t eat when youre not hungry, I mean like why?!?!?!?

Now that I already ate one spicy tuna bun, when I;m just slightly hungry. Now I’m so sleepy. This is why I don’t eat lunch cuz I tend to be very very very sleepy

I just read this thing saying that we need to wash our hair as much as possible, is it everyday? Should we actually wash our hair everyday? It’s exciting to think that I can try many shampoos in the market but the dent in my purse, it’s going to be deeper and broken into 2

from my second seminar 25july23 : the power of algae (1 out of 6)

 

1.The Power of Algae

Biotechnology

Consumer want firming and glowing

Lab grown algae in photobioreactor to maximize optimal growing

Photobioreactor are less contaminated

Usually algae is found in ponds, associated with destruction of local fauna habitat

MICROALGAE grows on the surface of photobioreactor

1.       Nannochloropsis oculata ; pepha tight CB

2.       Dunaliella Salina- pepha ctive CB (turn pink under extreme condition)

 

This supplier only have 2 algae actives

Claim for Nannochloropsis oculata pepha tight CB)

1.       Visibly smooth-even and flawless skin on 1^st application

2.       4x improved under eye zone someethness

3.       13x less sagging significant increase in firmness

4.       70% agree that their skin looks and feels firmer

Claim for Dunaliella Salina- pepha ctive CB

1.       Increase skin renewal by 5days

2.       80& tested found they have brighter and luminous skin

3.       70% agreed skin looked fresher

 

Benchmark product

1.       https://strivectin.co.uk/contour-restore-face-cream

2.       https://my.ahcbeauty.com/products/peony-bright-luminous-serum

balance n remind

 

I think the essence of life is reminder. Everyday need to remind cuz we tend to forget. There are a lot of things and information in this world that we need to keep up every single day. New inspiration and aspiration, always strive to be better each day. And read a lot to stay on the ground. Forget is bad word now. I’m too good at forgetting, that one thing I prayed previously because remembering somehow hurts me in a lot of way, I want to be carefree and forget things so that I can be happy. Now, I forget a lot of things (important) and that’s not good either. Balance is the best. And keep reminded

egyptian jasmine and turkish rose

 

egyptian jasmine

uninhibited aroma evokes lightness and joy, setting the stage of for physical awareness and imagination.

Thought to awaken the spiritual nature of intimacy, has been used traditionally in some cultures to decorate the bed of newly weds

Worn for Blessings and goodluck

Icon of feminity and pleasure, alluring and intoxicating

turkish rose

Contain kaempferol for anti aging purpose,

400kg of rose flowers need to collect 1 kg rose extract concrete

Empress of Nur jahan used to bath in full of roses

Roses sign of royal

Isparta, city in Turkiye  grown a lot of this roses

Annual market for rose oil is 3 tons, rose concretes 9 tons

lets be better

 

Before going to zohor solat, I just want to write about something. Maybe idea, maybe just something that coming across my head. Yesterday I went for seminar in saujana hotel near subang jaya air port, of all so many details, I went to solat at their surau. The surau is one of the rooms in the hotel (resort) that the management turn to surau. Regardless the fact that they vastly serve alcohol, they allocate a room for surau is something to praise, and have telekung there as well. Cuz last time aisyah went to seminar at Sheraton , have no telekung. Also, not a room. She didn’t mention the condition of the room.

Ok the thing is, aisyah solat in a normal way. I mean not rushing like me. I need to see people often (good things) that I want to cope with. Also, not wasting time mengular in surau during working hour. And that I learn from kak linda.

Forever reflecting and be better. You can do this

she never learn

 

Lesson learnt, again. Don’t buy cheap perfume and smell like powder. I hate powdery smell like literally, they smell so cheap. Time travel to 2008. When anne saidina sell to us all those cheap perfumes. Like I can remember they were waiting for us in front of our building gate, waiting for us to reach home. When we departed at the same time, but they drove fast like wind.

Recently I bought 4 cheap perfumes on lazbeauty sale to only smell like that. And it’s bad and make me want to vomit. I smell like crap. So I bought syahirah eau de natural in Egyptian jasmine and Turkish rose

 

Before that I was wearing syahirah vitalis in couture, love the smell that I spray all over me , like 10 spray each wear. That’s give me confidence to give try to cheap perfume and wear a lot , they will last long. Yes, it last long but smell stinky.

It’s like I forgot that I too have bad experience in eco shop rm2.40 perfume. Omg I just never learn aint i

where barokah at

After all, by 24^th July, means 24 days already in this month, I managed to not be late even for a day. That’s something to be proud of Alhamdulillah. I’m struggling and You know that Ya Allah. I’m struggling in every aspect of life, may it be the most obvious one, the financial part, spiritually, in relationship, in treating my mom well, in being wholly present in everything I do.

I think firstly is I need to be 100% focus on my work instead of roaming around and doing nothing related to work. Maybe this is why no berkat in my life. Ya Allah help me.

flipping page

 

You know that I’m now have a new hobby. Not like really new, just a recurring hobby. I really like books and read now. I read now. That’s for short. I want to focus with my reading. I love reading

I have read one book for 2 weeks. It’s a book written by Mitch Albom title The Next Five Persons You Meet in Heaven. I like the story so much. I want to keep reading.

Yesterday I went to Tsutaya in Pavilion Bukit Jalil and bought another book. Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine. I like books now and I am so proud. Even though it’s a very pricey hobby.

And I can even read free, ebook. But now I like the flipping and the smell of new books. I LIKE.

humbly begging

 I had a bad dream last night, I witnessed with my own pair of eyes that my bezza sink in the river, like literally my car and I can still remember all the detail. It was traumatic even for a dream. After few searches on the internet, mostly it curated that I need to be extra careful. Ya Allah, please protect me.

Alhamdulillah that I tell Nafi about my dream and she recommended me to start listening to selawat. Ya Allah Alhamdulillah for all good people around me that remind me of You and Prophet Muhammad SAW

Ya Allah, please protect me Ya Allah. Don’t let anything bad happen to me ever. Please, I humbly begging You Ya Allah

importante~

 

This is important. What I do is important. Even writing in my so called blog is important. Because this is much much better than lying on my bed and scrolling tiktok, Instagram reels and/ or browsing shopee. Doing whatever I’m doing now is important. I must convince myself that this is important. Writing is important, regardless how unorganized and messed my writings are with poor documentation, but this is important. Having a lot of ideas but not being able to make it into action due to not having enough source is far better than not doing anything and not having any ideas. Just remember that. Do something

Babe

Say

Something

Babe…

Kbye

 

worthy 4grand

 

I am grateful for a lot of things. Alhamdulillah. First and foremost. And for now, I am thankful for my phone. It’s an iphone 13 Pro Max. My phone is great, the battery can withstand a long hour. When I was in Dmasiv concert, I have no problem recording all performance and my battery still a lot. I don’t have to bring around power bank to charge my phone. Alhamdulillah. I also very proud and not feeling belittle to take out my phone anywhere. Super grateful for that. I want to take care of my phone, it’s a good RM4000 invested.

mas judika here i come

 

JUDIKA playlist

1^st round; This is Judika from Spotify

1.       Bagaimana Kalau Aku Tidak Baik Baik Saja

2.       Aku Yang Tersakiti

3.       Putus atau Terus

4.       Jikalau Kau Cinta

5.       Sampai Akhir (feat DuMa)

6.       Bukan Dia Tapi Aku

7.       Sampai Kau Jadi Milikku

8.       Tak Mungkin Bersama

9.       Cinta Karena Cinta

10.   Setengah Mati Merindu

11.   Mama Papa Larang

12.   Jadi Aku Sebentar Saja

13.   Aku Milikmu

14.   Karena Wanita

15.   Bukan Rayuan Gombal

16.   Malaikat

17.   Kisah ku Inginkan

18.   Apakah Ini Cinta

19.   Cinta Satukan Kita

20.   Tak Berlaku Bagiku

21.   Teman Hidup

22.   Lebih Dari Cinta

23.   Tersenyumlah SObat

24.   Hilang Tapi Ada

25.   Tiada Lagi

26.   Kenangan Yang Salah

27.   Aku Tak Begitu

28.   Merelakannya

29.   Kau Masih Milikku

30.   Yang Terakhir Di Hatinya

31.   Tak Pernah Tinggalkanku

32.   Ku Tak Mampu

33.   Tentang Rahsia

34.   Kucinta Kau Penipu

35.   Cinta Ini Milik Kita feat DuMa

36.   Kasih Bapa

37.   Hilang TanpaMU

38.   Bangkit Lagi

39.   Hanya Satu Kata

40.   Kenanglah Cinta Kita

41.   Bege Ma Hasian

42.   INI WAKTUMU

43.   Terus Berlari (Oh…Oh…)

44.   Amazing Grace

45.   Teruslah Berharap

46.   Tul Jaenak

47.   Kereta Apiku

48.   Tega

49.   Surat Dari Kamu

50.   Vida

the super loud head

 

The main main reason why I need to start connecting myself again with books, by reading them is so that I can build back garden in my head. I hardly can sit still nowadays. Even during lunch time, I will rest at surau, trying to nap. There are days which nap was super good, even days that I did actually shut my eyes trying to quiet my head by thinking something but I can’t. My head is super loud. I cannot imagine anything. I miss getting lost in my own head, seems like my head is so shallow now. I’m super packed with other things.

The bright side is, Alhamdulillah I have a love life and good career as well.

rlly rlly serious

 

Love the fact that every single day, I find new things about me that I don’t even know before. Like my latest finding, I’m not a fan of latina/Spanish/latin America/south America series.

Ya Allah, make ease of all my affair, please Ya Allah. I literally need You in everything.

So Ameera bought a concert ticket, it’s Judika. Now, apparently I have to listen to Judika non stop, it costs me RM259. That’s a pretty huge number. Considering I’m in debt. What is my plan ya. First and foremost, stop shopping; like seriously. Really really serious. By the way, my last concert experience is good.

not remarkable

 

I just realized one thing, that I actually cannot watch Spanish/Portugese television series, they’re not remarkable for me. I’ve watched quite a number of them, latest one I watch brazil setting chic Netflix tv series title back to 15. Just 6 episodes, it’s just like not me. I’ve watched one before, title guide astrological something, the concept is on zodiac, also not my thing. I’ve watched one before about this guy invented something for her TV show or something that can predict something something and he’s breakthrough on live show. Also, not remarkable at all. Like I never watch them. Unlike other TV series I got hooked on.

the planning~~~~

Now I’m so glad that my taylor swift and anuar zain battle were unsuccessful cuz imagine the financial recovery I needed after that. I’m gonna be in a big huge mountain debt. Scary as hell.

My goal for now is to decrease the amount of debt every month. For starter 

maybank : RM 3480

hong leong : RM253

This month goal, by 26th , the amount must be

maybank : less than RM3400 

hongleong : less than RM250

As for now, 15th 

maybank : RM 3646.44

hongleong: RM 349.86

Means

Maybank: RM 247

Hong leong : RM100

Now I have RM600

Hong leong RM100 (bank)

hongleong cc RM100

maybank RM100 (bank)

maybank CC RM300

Cash out bank rakyat : RM100

Upcoming event

sukiya

Barbie movie

18 days till next gaji

5 more date outs till gaji. 

All the best dear self huhu

gruesome amount

 

I bought these shoes at shopee. Honestly, they’re not comfortable but still bearable in sense that I can still wear it. My boyfriend likes it. He said they’re beautiful. Maybe because he really like the colour of black and I have a fair pair of feet. I really like the fact that he loved it. That’s make me happier and want to buy more even though I supposed not to because my debt is getting mounted. I’m afraid to put down in every post, like I should to do here. Hence the tittle of this blog is 1^st of March 2023 because that’s the official date I’m getting hinge on credit cards (debt) world.

they’re hitting 4000 MYR btw. Gruesome……

love is essence of life

 

I don’t know what’s the thing about being a woman, or maybe a girl? That I have this need to please man I love. Even before I have boyfriend, I mean, someone who I openly love and he too shout his love towards me, that we love each other; way before that I tend to please men I saw ‘potential’ and want to be together. Why ya? Is it just our XY thing or is it because I’m desperate and not pretty and validation from man I love is so important? Do I need to do something about it? It’s shameful, but love is an essence of life.

afraid of weighing scale

 

I am so proud of myself yesterday that I managed to cook (sambal sotong), vacuum my room and kitchen and as well as clean up toilet. Oh, and also I work out a bit, for about 10 minutes and my work out yesterday by Fitmik focused on abs. That I cheated on thoroughly. It’s only a 10 minutes workout that I increase the speed to 1.5.

I also watched Tamil movie , Thakkar. Star of the movie is Siddharth. I like him so much. The starting of the movie is great then eventually became so cliché. Still a good watch.

The thing is I also ate at 12.30am. It’s rice with sambal sotong and a whole maggi tomyam kung from tesco.

OMG I’M SCARED OF THE WEIGHING SCALE.

pink, red and orange

 

I just cant stop listening to Speak Now Taylor’s Version. I mean like I listen to it all the time. Is it healthy?

I should really stop buying on shopee platform, my shopee pay is getting near to limit. However, to my defense, I actually did cancel but the seller refuse my request. What can I do? They shipped it already by the way.

I bought another lip tints. Another 4 lip tints to be exact. This time, they’re all branded. They’re from Etudehouse and Tonymoly

 

1.       1. Etude House Dear Darling Water Gel Tint 4.5g in code RD301

2.       2. Etude House Dear Darling Water Tint 10g in #02 Cherry Ade

3.      3.  Tonymoly Delight Tony Tint in #02 Red

4.     4.   Etude House Dear Darling Water Gel Tint 4.5g in OR203.

 

You may realize that usually lip products consists of 3 base colour which pink, red and orange. I don’t look good in pink so far. I will update more Insha Allah.

still searching

 

I’m always off when it comes to fashion, it’s like always somewhere lack. For example, I bought a flower blouse that when at the store it look pretty and just like what I want, full of flowers. It costs me RM69.90. That’s a big number! To look like an opah. Huwaa so sad. I look like wearing granny’s cloth.

also my luck with black bawal scarf also bad. I have 3 in total. 2 new one. Also the awning not ok. I want to wear them several time more then I want to donate them. Still searching for my style.

my baby tonggek , frvr mine

 

Super grateful to You Ya Allah for Baim’s car. Finally Baim has his own car so that I’m no longer living in fear that any time he want to borrow my car and throwing tantrum when I refuse his request. I hate those moments, like seriously cuz of course as a working elder sister, I feel like I fail to provide.

I too have those rebellious phase that I want a car. I even rented a car and went back from Gambang to Kajang alone. That was my first ever road trip that I drove alone in a long journey.

I remember that I perform solat hajat beforehand, in case I accident. And no one knows my whereabout. So if I really accident, no one have any idea that could’ve been me.

Alhamdulillah, after all I survive. And get my own car. My baby tonggek is my precious. I love my bezza forever.

saddened to the core

 

So yesterday I’m feeling blue. I was so devastated because he cut my words when I was talking to him. I don’t know why it hurts so bad but I didn’t want to cause a scene (yet) since that was lunch break time and I don’t want to prolong. I can’t even sleep the entire lunch break. You know that I don’t take lunch instead, I prioritize my nap over everything and that’s not new. I cried the whole remaining hour. Because I was super sentap. And thinking that he doesn’t love me, don’t want to spend extra time with. It saddened me to the core.

led is my superhero

 

I mean like I’m 100 posts away from my goal. Yes, we can do this!

Today I want to write about missing people we can no longer see. I miss my Dad. After listening to Taylor Swift’s Superman (Taylor’s Version). The lyrics goes like the superman is ready to save the world or just go to work cuz both is actually the same. Being a working adult now I know the struggle to go to work, get salary and then pay for commitment. My dad is really a superhero for us. Thank you so much Led, hope we’re meeting again heaven. Amin.

like we stood a chance

 

I’m tired of crying, like seriously. Ya Allah, you know all my problems Ya Allah. I don’t even know why I’m still here. Like exactly this. Because in my head, if I let this one go, it means that I have no guy for me and I will end up being alone. Lonely. When everyone leads somewhere. Even when I’m together with him I also feel like this ship is going no where. Sparks gone. All left is anger and dependencies. Not love anymore. And we are two totally different persons, from different backgrounds. And as if we stood a chance.

Must refer all list one by one cuz i have the memory of a goldfish

 

Hello hello, my goal today is to chase and detailing down Ha ne u l project. I must get Haneul Purchase order cuz the project is running of time already since Wen haven’t purchase raw material and all. Must refer pipeline project. It’s critical. Like really critical.

I am facing problem that I have short term memory. Like yesterday, I went for grocery shopping and only like 4 things in the list. With that less things also I tend to forget 1 thing. I refuse to view the list cuz I was acting and feeling confident. Thus, today I need to buy the dishwashing soap. Cuz none left at home.