if you want to

 

I will obsessed about it until there’s nothing left to obsess about. I will get you out my system. I will be at peace. I will remember this pain. because I believe I will feel love again, but I will never feel this pain again. Pain to be left. Pain to beg for love. I don’t want to know about you anymore. You’re happy? Good for you. You’re in deep pain? that’s not my business anymore. I want to forget you but not this pain. I will be at peace one day, I will finally let you go freely.

You know what is sad? We can work on this together, if you want to. You poured your heart out to your so called friends and they gave you idea. You just cannot say no to your friends. When I said your friends are jealous of you, you wouldn’t believe me. They’re now will be very happy to see you in pain. No other woman can love them like I loved you. You wasted me. Your lost. I’m not losing anything, just need a little more time to rise again.

I see you’re not in pain. I see. It hurts me seeing you happy without me. Maybe we’re just not meant together. I will go. I will forget you, but this pain will remain forever. Maybe in few days come I will write about hoping you come back, or a sneak peak of scene I wish could happen or have happened in the past. I have so many free time now. I will write, until nothing left to write. Until I find content again. With myself. Like I used to be. When I was with you