love alone is not enough

 

Still hurt so bad. I want to focus on my work and healing. I don’t know what to do ya allah. It hurts so bad for me. Hurt me to see him that way too. But I cant keep helping him aint i. I will just disturb the healing process. Maybe I don’t want us to heal, I want us together. But us being together is hard. Us being together is just mere selfish. Unfair to my mom, family and my religion.

And us being together maybe just my idea. Because I want.

Cus he doesn’t want hard. He wants to set free from me.

I cannot be the only one to keep fight for this. It takes two to tango.

Maybe it’s time to go for good.

And love alone is not enough to be together.

This world is not meant for that. And for that, I want us to be together in heaven. For that, I want to submit pure submission to Allah and Allah only. This world is hard.

And I have to be strong for us both.

Time and space is needed.

I love you so much.