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Ya Allah, forgive me Ya Allah. Astaghfirullahalazim. I know why this happen. I plan for destruction. Forgive me Ya Allah for planning to do astray from Your path. Forgive me Ya Allah. Forgive me Ya Allah. Forgive me Ya Allah. I plan to do something that you inhibit then it suddenly straight away happen. Ya Allah what should I do Ya Allah. Am I trapped? This is just me and me Ya Allah. Help me Ya Allah. Why am I like this? By doing something like this is just pushing people away Ya Allah. I should be more carefree, and focus more on You ya Allah. I want to repair our relationship Ya Allah. But please Ya Allah, don’t take away him from me, don’t let anything bad happen that repulse us Ya Allah. This is so hard to put to words Ya Allah. I don’t want to hurt anymore ya Allah but holding too tight also hurt me in other way. What should I do Ya Allah. Help me to focus to You and only You Ya Allah. But I also want to be with him Ya Allah. Or that just the idea of him make me so attached Ya Allah. Please help me Ya Allah. I don’t want to deal with any more heartbreaks Ya Allah. Please let me be happy in general, please let our relationship happy, I want us to be together so bad Ya Allah. Please, make him right for me Ya Allah. He’s drinking. For the most I know is during the weekend. I can detect some how. And I’m supposed to know that , that’s the habit of his people. Ya Allah, what should I do with this fact Ya Allah. Other than that he is ok. He can pretty much cope up with my shit. So far

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