the self diagnosed but everything described well

 

95 posts more. I remember that few years back, when I was in diploma years, I think I have a minor bipolar disorder. Sometimes I felt ok. I was fine. I was in fact ecstatic, extremely happy and then ne next day I was being extremely sad. Ya Allah, Alhamdulillah, now I’m no longer that person. I don’t know what’s making me being who I am today, though I’m not perfect at all now, but I’m getting better. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Even now, I too have a lot of things to think but everything is under control. The only thing is that I feel distance from Allah. Help me with that Ya Allah, but please, don’t let anything bad happen. I am afraid that in order to be close to You, You gave me tests that going to be so hard. Don’t want that. I just want peace and a lot of money and  make my mama and led proud of me.

less energy and time.

 

96 posts left. Another day another increment of post to write. Everyday the post will increase. Everything is increasing, but not salary. Ha ha ha. The thing is that I also not really pushing my boss when it comes to increment because I know that too is also not too good of a worker. This is something I know and want to work on it. Now, I want to cook nasi lemak, later this evening, we want to go to maksu’s house for maulud nabi celebration and mama will cook nasi briyani. But now, I also need to work out. Ah, so many things to do, so less energy and time.

just for the sake to finish

 

96 posts left. Now I’m reading blinkist about Tucker the journalist or politics commentator. Don’t know him but somehow he’s famous in the States and married the love of his life despite her parents didn’t approve their relationship.

 

‘impact of communism on its people’

And the impact is that everyone is treated equally regardless who you are and no business monopoly. The downside of it is that  there’s no freedom of speech.

 

Is this communism just like George Orwell’s 1984? The Big Brother is watching isn’t it.

 

Yes it is. And now I feel like reading 1984 back cuz last time I read it I zone out. And finish just for the sake to finish it.

smooth like butter laptop

 

Hello, 97 posts more to go. Let’s do this as much as I can. I’m bringing back the another laptop, the only thing is that this laptop is too small and I’m getting used to this sooner or later. No one knows that I’m bringing this laptop back, omg am I being a thief??? My one of so many reasons is this laptop can connect the wifi really well. Now I know that old laptops are having hard time to connect with new wifi , my ex it officer boss told me when kaki za cant connect mihas wifi meanwhile when I’m using this laptop, it's being smooth like butter.

Market Survey #7 : Tatcha Violet C Brigtening serum

 

98 posts to go lets go.

Market Survey #7 : Tatcha Violet C Brigtening serum

 

-          A 20% Vitamin C and 10% AHAs brightening serum with pure ingredients and gentle strength that helps soften and smooth for more radiant, even-toned skin.

-          Fragrance free

-          (previously Sunday riley ceo one is 15%, so this one is in higher concentration)

-          Highly concentrated, kind-to-skin formula creates a lasting anti-aing and brightening effect.

-          Two types of Vitamin C provide antioxidant activity to defend against irritants and pollution while Japanese Beautyberry boosts and stabilizes their effects.

-          AHAs from 7 superfruits resurface dull, uneven skin and Japanese angelica root extract helps to diffuse hyperpigmentations, spots, discoloration and scarring without the need for harsh lightening agents.

-          Fluid texture of the serum absorbs quickly for easy application

functional society member

 99 posts to go.

I get drag with the introduction for previous post. Now the real sciency stuff. As the supplier came yesterday, from Brazil and look very Asian. She introduced few new ingredients and some of the ingredients were made through supercritical CO₂ extraction. Now that I know solid CO₂ is dry ice. The benefit of supercritical CO₂ extraction is non-toxic, non-flammable, doesn’t leave harmful organic residue, and is more environmentally friendly than many conventional organic compounds (which are oftentimes under restriction by the EPA). It’s widely used for extracting essential oils. In my field, essential oils are widely used.

That’s really something that I can kinda relate with my degree. Don’t know whether I miss that or not cuz I’m not good at that either. At some points of life, I don’t know what I’m good at.

Ya Allah, I want a lot of money and feel good. And be beautiful and be good to my parents. And be a functional society me

to be one of them

100 posts to go.

Let’s get into sciency stuff. Yesterday, supplier came to give head up to their new products. The products are usually the new raw materials for our new development. You know as skincare and cosmetic manufacturer, we are making our own skincare with ingredients like this. Our sole knowledge coming from pitching from supplier. Supplier tend to make seminar and seminar is fun to go. For the knowledge and hospitality. The foods are usually so good. I’ve been twice out station one and one seminar that the supplier came and introduce their products. Usually Malaysia distributor will bring together principal from overseas to give the talk. I like looking at them people, look charismatic and thick pocket. Hopefully I can be one of them in the future.

Market Survey #6: Laneige Radian-C Cream: Dual Vitamin C+ E , Melasolv r

 

101 posts to go

Market Survey #6: Laneige Radian-C Cream: Dual Vitamin C+ E , Melasolv r

-          Deep hydration Vitamin C cream that lightens micro-dark spots which highly effective Radian-C Super Blend, for a clear, bright and radiant complexion

-          Enriched with tone-up booster, visibly brightens your skin in just 2 weeks

-          Help in reducing dullness, redness and improve skin barrier

-          Blemish care

-          Kind to skin mild formula

-          Dual vitamins brightens skin tone from the core

-          Melasolv ; patented brightening ingredient effectively addresses dullness & blesmishes

-          Have 20x brightening effect as 20x amount of niacinamide

-          Mild formula to use in the morning

-          Texture : rich formula with a light finish

-          Use sustainable palm oil produced without deforestation

lifelong commitment

 

102 posts more.

 

50kg is the goal ya. Every single day, with that in your head ya Sharifah. Even when you had a&w 2 piece chicken and rice and even worse, rootbeer with ice cream. WHAT IS THAT. What is diet ya? What is cut sugar? Where is your one meal a day plan; OMAD waklu. You even had rice at 1 am last night. Are you really serious? How like this?

yesterday or the day before yesterday, I saw scha al yahya story that she really still go to gym even when she’s thin and never fat at all.

This is seriously a lifelong commitment.

I only exercise for 6 minutes. That’s only because I sped up the video. From today session, no more sped up version ya. You’re cheating sharifah. Please take that seriously.

market survey #5 : C.E.O GLOW SUNDAY RILEY : Vitamin C + Turmeric Face Oil

 

103 post more.

Market survey # 5: C.E.O GLOW SUNDAY RILEY : Vitamin C + Turmeric Face Oil

-with advanced Vitamin C (THD Ascorbate), turmeric and evening primrose oil to brighten, hydrate and glow.

- advanced Vitamin C blended in a base of cold-pressed, red raspberry and evening primrose seed oils to skin a burst of luminosity.

- Golden turmeric extract is rich in antioxidant and calming compounds to improve skin tone and refresh complexion.
-antioxidants promote a more youthful appearance

- calms and soothes skin

- revitalizes skin with Vitamin C
- can wear at night and in the morning

- it protects skin and restores radiance

all i want is sleep

 

104 more posts to go. 52sfusksja060hsihfo8rrrtsdnskfRRhfsoufkjscf. That’s my h o n g liyong beng kod. For their game. THAT’S ALL FULLY REDEEMED. Then, what’s the point of me playing the game? I don’t get it.

omg so dizzy right now but I have obvious reason, I didn’t sleep well last night. Thanks starbucks reserve, your beans are too strong. Now my head is feeling glup glup. Like im in the water. Don’t like it at all.

Tomorrow is public holiday, and I need to attend exhibition on Friday. All I want now is a deep sleep. Like seriously….. No kidding.

lets getting better

 

104 posts left.

One thing that I need to be thankful is that I am now freely can browse web any time I want. And whatsapp chat with my friends too. But sometimes I ‘m afraid if one day boss call me for an intervention, so I still need to be extra careful. By the way, today is my 1^st anniversary working here. Alhamdulillah everything is good, may it getting better each day. I will work hard tomorrow, I want to do filing and sorting my ha ne ul project. That supposed to be done today, but I got dragged away. I want to be better. Always

Market survey #4 : Dr Dennis Vitamin C Lactic Oil-Free

 

105 posts to go.

Market survey #4 : Dr Dennis Vitamin C Lactic Oil-Free

An oil-free treatment combining the superior of a moisturizer with the potency of a serum.

Combines lactic acid and three forms of Vitamin C to increase absorption and enhance antioxidant performance for visible improvement of dehydrated, sun-aged skin.

Vitamin C and Lactic acid work synergistically with centella asiatica and chaga mushroom extract to combat environment aggressors, even out texture and tone and reveal youthful radiance.

Help to smooth fine lines, more radiant and brighter skin, even tone and texture and healthier more balanced skin.

Oil free, creamy lotion

fan of my cooking

 

106 posts to go.

I love grocery trips. I love going to supermarket and buy things to cook. It’s really therapeutic. I love cooking and Alhamdulillah there’s always ‘fan’ for my cooking especially my brother, Baim. He really like my cooking, whatever I cook he will support. Alhamdulillah. Meanwhile my mom also supportive but she sometimes cut my passion. I mean by , she’s always be like, don’t cook la, we buy outside, you must be tired, don’t cook lah. But if I cook, she will eat it and will talk good. That’s a good point Alhamdulillah.

market survey # 3 : mario badescu drying patch

 

107 posts lets gohhh.

Market Survey #3: Mario Badescu Drying Patch

It’s a clear patch targeted for acne.

Ingredients include Salicylic acid.  BHA exfoliant that helps reduce blemishes. Main purpose of salicylic acid is to fight acne. Since if you have acne means that your face is oily, then salicylic acid have properties that gonna dry your skin hence this drying patch also added with hydrating and soothing ingredients such as

-          Hyaluronic acid : mainstream hydrating actives

-          Niacinamide or Vitamin B3

-          Vitamin C : usually use for brightening series. As it promotes collagen

This patch also extremely thin and patch easily camouflages with skin.

better together, forever

 

108 posts to go, leggooo.

And I fail guys, I’m too hungry and now I’m munchin on mamee monster. 10.27am. WHERE IS MY 50KG/???/ So hard ya. I realize that when I’m sad, I’m not hungry. But when I’m happy and in normal mood, I tend to be very hungry quickly. And that’s really alarming.

Need to set in my mind that fitness and diet is FOREVER. In the downside, since I know that it’s gonna be forever, so I care less if I miss, I’ll be like, nevermind, can do tomorrow. Aiyaa. Need to get rid of this mentality, so we can be together, foreverrr.

50 kg is the goal. and good reads on trackk

 

109 posts to go. As today is a new day, means the posts left behind is inceasing. Back to 109 posts to catch. One of so little things that I kinda proud of is that my Goodreads goal in on the track. I read blinkist every morning now. Alhamdulillah. Grateful for it.

ok now im so hungry. But I cannot eat cuz I want 50k huwaaa. But im so  hungry but I haven’t answer nature call for 2 days and OMAD (one meal a day) is the best diet. Ya Allah help me. Also, I’m towards cut sugar so I’m not at all tempted with starbucks promotion buy 1 free 1. AT ALL. Thank you. And I skip working out yesterday aiseyyyyyyyy.

help me to navigate life ya Rabb

 

109 posts to go. Last one for today’s session at work. Now is 6.02pm, I’m about to solat Asar, I know it’s kinda late. I just want to tell Allah now that I am super grateful for all the rezeki He provides me. May He continuously provides me in all sense. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah. Sometimes I get sad. Most of the times I get sad. Ya Allah please always give me provision. May I never cut out from your rezeki Ya Allah. Ya Allah, help me in my job, my family and my jodoh. Forgive me if I ever be ungrateful. Help me to be better ya Allah.

market survey #2 : Sunday RIler CEO 15% Vitamin C

 

110 posts to go. Now back to work related stuff.

Market survey #2; Sunday Riley CEO 15% Vitamin C Brightening Serum

-          Ultra powerful Vitamin C called THD Ascorbate rapidly absorbs into the skin for visible anti aging benefits.

-          Phytosterols helps to reduce sign sensitivity, isolated from soybeans, reduce redness

-          Saccharide Isomerate extact diminishes the appearance of pores and reinforces the skin’s moisture barrier for a skin-smoothing glow.

-          Glycolic acid, an AHA which refines skin texture and keeps the pH of the final product in the right zone for the maximum effectiveness of the formula

good nasi goreng how

 

111 posts to go. Yesterday I went watching movie with min. The Nun 2. Since actually it’s my turn to belanja, but since I’m now in cooking fever, I love to cook now ya so I cooked nasi goreng sotong. Since I know that min likes belacan, I put more so that he gonna like it. But silly me for not putting it too much and in chunky form. Happen to be that min ate the belacan chunk and spoilt the entire experience. Plus, it also not a very good nasi goreng to be honest. How to make a super good nasi goreng ya?

market survey #1 : innisfree dual vitamin C and green tea enzyme : brightening serum

 

112 posts to go. Yes, I want to write this every time I write a post. Lets switch it every now and then for a different purpose. Now let’s talk work.

From market survey #1 : Innisfree Vitamin C and Green Tea Enzyme

-          Dual brightening & refining serum for 4x brighter skin

-          Dual Vitamin C derivatives & Jeju Green Tea Enzyme

-          Helps to take care of the appearance of dark spots, dullness and rough skin texture

-          Dual Vitamin C: oil-soluble Vitamin C and water-soluble Vitamin C – help skin absorb the actve ingredients more effectively to brighten dark spots

-          Jeju Green Tea Enzyme is softens and dissolves dead skin cells, for a more refined and brighter looking skin.

https://www.innisfree.my/vitamin-c-green-tea-enzyme-brightening-serum

113 posts to write, 25kg to lose

 

113 posts more. Let’s go. I don’t understand man sometimes. Maybe most of the times. Maybe because he’s drunk? But he didn’t seem drunk last night. That’s a new information for me. He’s different once he’s drunk and I hate it. Somehow, when meet in person, he will be extra affectionate which I like very much. Being loved undividedly. However, I still need to take care of my diet and workout, like really working out, not tipu2 work out. This is really a motivation. He even said that he will only marry me if I’m 50kg. That’s about 25kg to lose.

bruceleeazation

 

The Blinkist of the day today is , Be Water, My Friend : The Teachings of Bruce Lee by Shannon Lee. The main point of the book is that be like water. Means that you can fit everywhere you want. Not really understand, I just read for the sake of read , oh my god that’s not good. But then something about empty your mind. Water can flow or it can crash. Be formless and shapeless like water. Oh my god is that really means that you supposed to not have standings or what? Need to redefine.

By the way, one of the takeways that Bruce Lee died at the age of 33 and that’s pretty young. I never watch any of Bruce Lee’s movies, I thought he’s still alive like Jackie Chan. And I’ve read that Jackie Chan is not a nice person ( not related, just that thing coming out of of nowhere). And Michelle Yeoh had acting with Jackie Chan. Maybe need to read more about Bruce Lee. All I know he is famous. And good at martial art (kung fu or what idk). WOW IM NARROW.

let's just read blinkist of the day

 

OH MY GOD. NOW I’M IN A BIG PROBLEM. I CANT LOGIN MY BLINKIST. IN ALL MY DEVICE. AND I’M 3 BOOKS BEHIND MY SCHEDULE.

Ok relax.

Actually it’s not a big deal at all cuz if I consistently read the free Blinkist of the day, I can still make it. So, take a deep breath and relax. We can do this. In meantime, I can religiously read my physical book. I read one now actually, from Malcolm Gladwell titled The Tipping Point. A non-fiction book and it just collecting dust at my bedside table because I always no mood to read. Aiyaa I have a Instagram highlight on books I read, stuck at the third book which is this book. HUWAAA.

Also, I have an idea. Since I jot down all the movies I watch with Min since our first date, maybe in order to finish all 115 posts today, I can review all book movies. Sounds alright , right?

a girl can dream..... just 4.35% success

 

Oh My GOD, I am 115 posts behind??? Like seriously?? Now, I made up my mind to write all 115 posts, in one day. Yes, I’m not kidding you at all. I’M GONNA WRITE IT DOWN. LIKE SERIOUSLY. 115 posts with at least 100 words per post. ONCE EVERYTHING IS BACK TO NORMAL, I’M GONNA WRITE EVERY POST WITH 300 WORDS. It is really important to keep writing because it’s like I have time to myself. I can reflect my self by writing. It’s always been a dream to write a lot. Even, one of my dream is to write a book. Or Novel or whatever cuz I like it so much.

please look forward solat

 

Alhamdulillah. Have nothing scheduled today. Alhamdulillah. Jimat duit. Hahaha. My financial is very alarming ya. Alhamdulillah, the work also been good syukur Alhamdulillah. The only thing not good is that I haven’t solat subuh yet, I;m so lacking on that side nowadays. I’m so not proud of it at all. I always wanted to be good in every single thing. But a lot going on at the moment now. Now I want to cook Bawal Sweet sour, meanwhile everyone is getting married. Like literally. And here I am, in a relationship that sort of like no future. Ya Allah. Please help me. And I want to be real good at writing as well but I read less nowadays. Please help me.
- SOlat subuh and dhuha
- masak bawal sweet sour
- kemas bilik and basuh brush makeup
- read 4 blinkists and write summary

thankful

 

Alhamdulillah for so many things. Endless Alhamdulillah. Terima kasih ya allah atas segalanya

Thank you Ya Allah, I have so many things to be thankful for
1. My family especially my mom. From today onwards, I want to belanja or buy something for my mom everything I go out. Which is a lot but we can do this
2. My car, still in good condition Alhamdulillah, I want to keep maintaining my car by regular car wash and in future once my credit card debt become normal again +- RM2500, I will make tinted for my car. And also the internal! Want to declutter

back on track

 

Like always, way behind schedule. Now this is alarming. Like everything is behind the pipeline. And I’m afraid of the DHL should I said sorry now or later, aaa what should I do. Now everything is feel like behind. I even miss a lot of solat yet Allah still save me from all badness could’ve been happened due to my neglect. Ya Allah, please help me.

Friday
Asar – 4
Maghrib – 3
Isyak – 4

Saturday
Subuh -2
Maghrib – 3
Isyak – 4

Sunday
Subuh -2

 

Oh my God, that’s a lot lot. My goal now is to repay back all the solats I miss before I’m going out today. Need to give all out.
Another things I need to do

-          My goodreads goal, read all blinkist to keep track

-          Kemas bilik

-          Update Instagram

-          Look projects timeline
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